"I had heard that there were severely wounded at Sinaia, so one November morning I motored towards the mountains. (...) Indifferent to the battles being fought in the valley beyond, King Carol's castle seemed peacefully asleep. Why had I come? What had I hoped to find? (...) Scared servants, let me in [Pelisor Castle]. In the chamber most dear to, I stood still a moment, my hands pressed to my heart. It was as though I could hear his small voice and tiny feet pattering down the corridor! And suddenly it was summer again, the snow outside turned to flowers, and beneath the window, my little one was playing in innocent delight. So vivid was the vision, that I had to pass my fingers in front of my eyes to realize it was a vision of the past. Something that never ever could be... Turning around, I fled down the stairs, out of the house, away, away! I preferred to be among the dying and wounded that in my house inhabited by ghosts! I ran away from those wee, pattering feet, trampling upon the open wound in my heart. My place was there no more! All that belonged to the past, to times of peace and content. Now Mircea was dead and it was war."
After the death of her youngest child - Prince Mircea - on November 2nd, Queen Marie tried to escape Bucharest as often as possible. The Queen could usually be found in the hospitals near the front. Exactly 100 years ago today, Marie visited Sinaia for the last time before the two years exile in Moldova. The weather was horrible and she wanted to spend the night at Pelisor Castle, her home. However, the memories of Mircea were so strong that she went to spend the night in the nearest war hospital instead. This incident is described both in her diary and in 'The Country That I Love' (where the passage is from). This is quite possibly the most heartbreaking thing the Queen ever wrote.